IF YOU CAN’T STAND THE PRESSURE, MOVE OUT OF THE ENTREPRENEURIAL KITCHEN

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IF YOU CAN’T STAND THE PRESSURE, STEP OUT OF THE ENTREPRENEURIAL KITCHEN...


This morning it occurred to me that there actually is one really really REALLY GOOD REASON  *not* to want to make a shit ton of money .... for some people, anyway. And today I’m gonna tell you about a turning point in my life when I had to decide if I was one of them.


Because the LAST thing I expected in March of 2015 when my business took off and I generated $30,000 in sales in one week in my business (that’s a whole year’s salary in a week) was for my life to go to hell in a hand basket.


Yet that’s exactly what happened.


Looking back, I see myself sitting in my brand new luxurious three bedroom apartment with my hair blown straight back, frozen stiff from being blown into another stratosphere....


....exactly like actual astronauts do as the rocket is shaking like mad right before they break through the sound barrier and can breathe easy on the other side of it.


EXCEPT MY SNAPPING OUT OF THAT STATE AND INTO THE NEXY LEVEL WAS NOT QUICK AT ALL.


I stayed stuck.


For months!!!


Like right in that position where things shook  like mad around me —-and kept shaking shaking shaking —- and I just sat there. With all the money in my bank account but no clue what the fuck else was going on all around me.


Is THIS what making money is supposed to be like???


THIS is what I worked my ass off for all these years?


To get HERE?


Terrified frozen?


Suddenly alone as friends and family shunned this new affluent me (they were just as shocked and didn’t know what to make of my internet success, of course!)?


Zero clue what to do next and too afraid to move at all because of all that had changed when I was working working working to make THIS all happen and now ... now .... WITAF?


Nobody was throwing a party for me as I had fantasized.


Life didn’t magically change and money solve all my problems and worries.


There were NEW problems and worries now!!!


Not to mention, I couldn’t move .... well, my hands worked to tap buttons on my cell phone remote app that kept Netflix going on my computer.


If I’m honest, I became sort of a lump.


A frozen, terrified lump of a successful business woman, minus all the confidence and skill and any sort of memory of tools she had once mastered to get herself here.


And I just sat frozen like that, for months.


Then, in my inaction, MORE things fell away. Like the momentum of new clients arriving into my business (why would they keep coming when my momentum was now moving toward inaction and stagnancy rather than the energy of FLOWING FORWARD POWERFULLY, which is what drew them to me in the first place?)


So there I was.


Supposedly now “wealthy” ...and.... miserable AF.


Not what I expected.


Not what they promised (mentors and successful people in my field plastering photos of their happy rich lives all over Facebook).


So of course that part of my brain whose #1 goal is to keep things the same in my life (to keep me safe) which I had been tackling down successfully for years in order to make all this money (which created all this change) crawled out of the back seat and came back swinging:


I TOLD YOU NOT TO GO FOR IT!!


I TOLD YOU TO KEEP THINGS AS THE WERE!


YOU HAD A SAFE SECURE GOVERNMENT JOB ... NOW LOOK!!!! WHAT IN THE F ARE WE GONNA DO NOW???


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Back then, my answer was to react to this inner panic with MORE panic and terrify myself to the point I could not move ... the point where only Netflix and loads of carbohydrates gave me relief enough (read: numbness enough) to escape what I thought was the reality I just found myself in: that everything I had risked and worked my ass off to create was for nothing. THAT BEING RICH SUCKED!!!


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Today, today I know that standing in the intense pressure of change, the kind of change that shakes your whole stratosphere is exactly the skill that is required to keep going.


That’s it!


All the panic and mind garbage thoughts (what ifs, now what’s, holy shit what have I done) allllll calm down when I’m able to stand in the pressure and *KNOW* from the bottom of my soul, that I’ve got this.


NO MATTER WHAT IT IS.


That I don’t have to freeze.


That I can keep fucking going because this is what I’m made of!


This is what I’m meant for ... to live an adventurous life that yes shakes up my own world on the regular but does it for one very damn good reason: to shake up the rest of the world too! So I can create the change I want to see in the mother fucking world.


This is who I am.


That’s what all this pressure I consciously choose is for!!!


No diamonds were ever created without pressure.


And if you’re not willing to master the art of standing in it, then yes you’ll buy into the idea  and say “yup that’s a really really really good point, Gina - I don’t want that kind of money or pressure so I’ll stay where I am right now.”


Then those people who won’t ever step up and into the wealth and impact they’ve been saying they want their whole lives do .... they stay where they are ...

 

...and why wouldn’t they??? Of course they would and I say this WITH LOVE!!! It makes absolutely no sense to put yourself through this journey if they don’t want it THAT BAD....so staying where they are makes sense!!!

 

....but I’m not.


I’m standing here strong as I’m meant to, holding space for the women stepping up into their greatness and purpose right now too.


You too???


XX Success Coach Gina

Gina Silvestri