NO MORE CHANGING WHO YOU ARE FOR OTHERS

NO MORE CHANGING WHO YOU ARE FOR OTHERS

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I USED TO PANIC AND WANT TO HIDE AND TRY TO CHANGE MYSELF WHEN MY EMPATH NATURE SHOWED HARD, OUT IN THE OPEN + CHALLENGED NORMAL/LOGICAL WAYS OF DOING THINGS ....


Journaling in bed has been normal for me for over twenty years now, for instance.


I mean, DUH!


Of course you wake up and write. OF COURSE you can stay right in bed right in your PJs to do it


- nobody’s getting up to sit at a desk here or delaying the gorgeous soul river or words bursting to pour out of me by moving in any way at all.


When my soul wants to speak it gets to speak. Period, the end.


I realize not everybody thinks this way ... or will risk or pay anything on the regular to make sure this happens - my man certainly never did before we moved in together 3.5 years ago.


He’s a rugged mountain man who understands energy and sensitivity and how necessary time in nature is (another DUH how could I be with anyone else!!??) but “ruining” bed sheet set after bed sheet set and duvet after duvet still gets to him sometimes.


Ultimately he smiles now, because he knows this is what makes ME me ... he knows that bed sheets and duvets in my world end up this way and there’s a budget in place to replace them 🙂🙂😂😂💸💸💰💎 and even if there wasn’t we would find a way, because it’s my soul expressing itself that we’re talking about here and NOBODY F’s WITH THAT.


He’s changed his perspective soooo much and gotten rid of the label “ruining” altogether now since it’s not actually “ruining” at all .....not in my world ....


and I’m just reminded on days like these what true love is: seeing the other’s soul and what nourishes them and rolling with it even if it triggers old belief patterns in you (“I can’t waste money like that”)


- it’s overcoming those trigger patterns, rising above them - and having the experience of watching your partner rise above hers for your soul nourishment and fulfillment too.


Sooooo, where I once used to panic and worry about feeling rejected and ashamed for “the way I am” my heart warmed instead this morning, after I paused journaling for a few minutes, to pet my cat and stare at trees out my window,


then when I went to pick up my pen again, there’s a big black ink stain blotch on (yet another new) white duvet.... which I OF COURSE turned into a heart (duh).


HUUUGE EXHALE .... I just get to be me.


You just get to be you.


Surround yourself with true soul family to facilitate your authentic soul expression in your life


- people who get you, who flow with you no matter what, who are willing to rise above and grow with you


- so you’re not spending your life fighting every little thing that rubs people this way or that way in your world or the normal people world


(which we know isn’t the place we even care about trying to warp our true nature just to fit into in the first place!).


XOXO  Gina


PS....he’s still snoring beside me right now, how long do you think it will take for him to notice????

Gina Silvestri